I think it's pretty normal to experience some level of stress going into Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur- especially as a parent, both with additional concerns that go along with being a parent and being responsible directly for other people, as well as concern about how much/how well you will be able to have the opportunity to daven. Being the day after Yom Kippur, I continue to think about the davening I did, and continue to hope that all of my tefillos will be answered. It was a very hard Yom Kippur for multiple reasons, including being home all day with two kids, and also the fact that this year is the first time since we got married that we actually stayed home for the chagim an didn't go to one of our parents, where there was additional support and adults around for conversation and sanity. Current stressors and issues that I'm going through (see previous posts) are also contributors to the difficulty of the day.
But I made it through- I did get some davening done, although not as much as I would have liked. I kept my sanity (whatever was left at this point) and was able to take care of my kids and meet their needs, and I was able to feel ok while fasting, which I was concerned about as well.
I think what I need to keep in perspective is that while the Rosh Hashana/Yom Kippur experience is only once a year, the work is something that takes a whole year to continue, and H-shem is always open to tefillos and work on self-improvement.
And I should be working on myself the whole year as well.
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